Keep dreaming.

please excuse the picture, i have absolutely no idea what i am doing there. but hey, at least my nails look cute.
i decided to upload this picture, because this is the only one where my hair looks perfect. i love the colour and the cut. my mom cut my bangs yesterday, but they just didn't turn out like on this picture. and i rrrrrreally want them to like like this again. oh, and i'm going to die my hair brown again. probably in a week (:
and in two weeks i'm off to brrrrighton! i'm really exited, but kinda scared though, because only half of the people there feel safe at night. but my teacher said that a lot of british people feel unsafe in their own city at night.
i don't know if that's true or if she just tried to comfort me. but boy, it didn't.

so, i've been thinking about creating a make up channel on youtube, but i need a username.
and i'm like not good at creating screen names AT ALL. you know, i would never come up with something like bubzbeauty.  it's just too much for my brain, so i would love you if you could comment me some suggestions ^_^

oh, and i've been thinking about deleting my blog recently. because my youtube screen-name for my music channel is the same as on piczo it kinda bothers me. because when you google 'tschwinnie' piczo is the first link taht comes up. and i honestly don't want people to see my blog. i mean, sure you guys read about my experiences, been through hard times and got to know all of my secrets and stuff that i haven't told ANYBODY yet. for example the letter to my dad. Ii never opened up that much and talked about my feelings like i did on this blog. after i did this i felt good, like a part of this weight i'e been carrying around for 10 years fell of my shoulders.
i don't mind that you guys read that, but i don't want my friends or stupid facebook people read this.
and because i can't change my username or url on piczo, i've been thinking about deleting my blog.
or giving it to someone else, but 'tschwinnielikescupcakes' is probably not a url someone would like to have :P
i would probably cry, i've been on here for almost 2 years and it was and still is an amazing experience.

but if i really need to delete this i wanna say that you guys were like real friends to me, i loved reading your posts and comments on my blog. every single one of you is amazing in your own way, never let anyone tell you something else. and don't forget: stay true to yourself, don't do drugs and eat your vegetables (:

P.S. sorry, if there are any spelling mistakes, it's already midnight and i'm too tired to read through it again to correct any mistakes.